Hey.. Baby, I love you so much.. I'm so fucking sorry ok.. I could't send you a pm so I hope you get this..
i honestly dont know what i did before you left for work.. to deserve your silence but im sorry..
everytime im on and talking to someone i feel so shit because you get a little unsure when im socializing with someone you dont know but it feels like you never understood how i felt with you and your friend..
i mean.. why would you have his number thats kinda uneasy for me..
but i understand if you just want to talk to someone else, who isnt boring and shit..
you seemed so attached to me hh.. the moment you had other people to talk to it was easy to tell..
you stopped wanted to be around me so much..hnn.. i guess i freaked out a bit, i got paranoid and started thinking that maybe im not good enough for you.. (ridiculous, i know) i just wanted to have a perfect life with you, i still want that.. bb i dont want anybody else, i either have you or nobody :l
how could i not want to be with the one person that actually made me feel better.. about myself and about life.. you gave me a purpose and a reason to live v.v
when i got on my break today i was dying from heat exhaustion, i was annoyed at some events that happened at work and i was just so fucking excited to finally have a break and read your messages, i was excited to talk to you.. well you didnt respond.. i felt sad and betrayed, like you chose him over me and i dont mind if you talk to him, i wouldnt have said anything.. thats if you talked to me v.v i just feel like shit hun..
i love you so fucking much and im so fucking sorry
im sure you'd feel happier if i left you alone?
i need you ;-; if you care about me at all or have any feelings toward me still.. please come talk to me..
it's too hard to be without you, it's too lonely and depressing..
i fucking miss you girl ;;
Des